A New Year Is On The Way!

I am so ready for a New Year! I feel like I may can take a breath. This year has been so crazy with my dad being sick and Lonnie going off to college. These were very big events in our lives.
Things seem to be getting better with both of these situations, but I still seem like my world is falling apart most days. I just can't feel relaxed, I always feel uptight and stressed. I need a good LONG vacation!!! Merlin want him and me to go on a cruise, That seems wondereful, but I do hate to leave the children. I know we need to go away together and I know we will, but there I go again feeling like the world can't survive without me, we all know it can! Just pray for me and my crazy life, that should be enough to keep us all busy!!

Weary Week!!!

Well, it has been a very long and exhausting week this week!! I have had so many emotions running through my head... anger,sadness,aggravation,hurt. I have just not been able to function normally this week at all. I can't go into any details, but all I can say is please pray for my family! As if it isn't hard enough raising 2 teenagers, trying to keep an extended family going is a pain also.

I think I'm tired of trying to keep everyone on the right track and taking care of everyone. I want to be taken care of for a change. I don't want to pay bills, make sure every one is at doctor appointments, dance class, school, etc. I just want to be pampered and not have to worry if we have the money to do something or not. My husband is very good, but he is also very spoiled and he couldn't do these things on his own. I guess that's why God put us together, so we could complete each other.

I guess everybody is ready for Christmas? I am, but not really feeling the spirit this year. I'm usually really excited, but not this year. I mean I have much to be thankful for, my father getting better and everything, but just thankful we have each day together.

The Joys of Parenting!!

Some time I wonder if I will ever get this parenting thing down pat?!? You think you finally got the hang of it and something happens you can never imagine. I know God has to keep us on our toes, but he has really been on be lately. I guess I should not blame God, he gets blamed for enough he has nothing to do with. No matter how these things come my way I know I have to depend on him to carry me through them. I thank God for his arms & shoulders. I know I have used them a lot in the last year.

Hump Day!

My daughter and her friend Ashlee thought I was crazy when I told them last week that Wednesday was hump day. They had never heard of that, so I explained to them what it was. They thought it was so funny, but said they better be careful who they told that at school or they might get expelled.

I think most weeks I feel like I have 5 Mondays! Always busy, but that is good. There are many people today that don't have a job. I thank God we are blessed to have a good job and I also thank him for each day he gives me to be with my family.

I can't wait for the weekend!!

I learned to add pictures...What will be next???

Couldn't seem to find a picture of me anywhere. Maybe that should tell me something, I take terrible pictures. But these are a few of some big events that have taken place in the last few months. Hope you enjoy them!

One of those weekends!!!!

This weekend was one of the worst I have had in some time. Lonnie was home, which was good! My husband washed all the vehicles, which was good. Me and Bethany cleaned and washed clothes, which was good. Then Lonnie, Bethany, BB & me went shopping and out to eac, which was good. I guess you are wondering where the bad comes in. Well, I really don't know where it crept in either, but it was like something took over my body, mind and spirit. I was depressed to the point I could hardly walk. I know that sounds stupid, but thats how I felt. It hurt to even try and get out of bed. There are only a few people I can really talk to and feel better and they all live away from me right now, this weekend I was told that I was trying to take back my burden from God! I thought why would I want to do that. Then I thought about it and I guess that was right. I had given something over to God several months ago and have not worried about it anymore, just been depending on God and now, after 6mths I'm trying to take back some of this from God.
My friend also said every time you do that it is like slapping God in the face. I do not want to take back my burden...it felt so good when he lifted it from me....I pray that God helps me to continue to be strong and know he is in total control, even if things don't work out like I would have them to.

Currently my favorite song!

"I'm In Better Hands Now" by Natalie Grant

Join the Club!

I guess it's time I join the club! I didn't do My Space, Face Book or any of those COOL things, but if Jill can do it I can too! I really enjoy looking at the pictures and comments about the life of all my friends, so I guess I can put myself out there too. Just don't be surprised at what you read. I will probably have some people thinking how in the world does she even hold down a job as crazy as she is, but just know it's only by the Grace of God I haven't been committed!